My Life...

Wow...so much has happened in my life...

It all started when I was born on June 7....my mom and dad were so excited to have a little girl....(at least that's what my mom told me lol)

I had a pretty good childhood...I grew up pretty happy, I always had what I needed and a lot of what I wanted...

Towards the end of 6th grade and that summer.....my life completely changed...first off, I lost my Uncle Karl...He had a heart attack and died. It was so horrible..All I remember is knowing that nothing would ever be the same. We went out to Colorado to attend his funeral. My dad and my Uncle Craig and Uncle Kevin were 3 of the pallbearers. The funeral was really sad, but it was beautiful. I really miss my uncle...It's crazy what you take for granted ya know?......Then..the most horrible thing that's ever happened in my life...my dad died. He had a massive heart attack at home...It was so scary...I remember that day so vividly in my mind. It used to haunt me and play over and over in my head, and it still kinda does. Sometimes when I think about him a lot that day just plays over in my head...The worst thing was my grandma and grandpa coming in and said very plainly...your father is dead...those are four words I never ever wanted to hear. My dad...dead...it just didn't seem possible....It was 3 and some change years ago...and it still is a shock to wake up without him every morning....

Ok now that's done...skip a couple years cuz 7th and 8th grade weren't really a big deal...well they kinda were but oh well lol...I got confirmed in 8th grade, and I went to Chicago, and I graduated 8th grade!! woo-hoo!! Oh yeah and in February of that year I got my first little "peck" kiss lol it was kinda forced...ya know like a dare? and that's kinda gay lol but oh well what are ya gonna do!?

Alright then we get to the summer before high school...I met this guy...and I really fell for his game. Like really bad and I don't know how or why I did it! But he gave me my first "real" kiss and let me tell ya it wasn't what it was cracked up to be. I was kinda being used. He was a senior and I was just a freshman...oh well what can ya do??

Freshman Year...Wow not that much happened!! I finally got some friends and played basketball and volleyball....our basketball record was 8-10 and our volleyball record was 8-5, so we did pretty good! Most of the year I liked one guy...one guy that I thought was everything, and now I'm glad nothing happened with us...He's a good friend and he's really awesome ya know...he's great and my friends know who I'm talkin about...

Summer before Sophomore Year...A lot happened this summer man...Even though it may not seem like a lot...Well, me and Melissa got to be really good friends which is awesome cuz I love her...Me and Garcia got to be friends again and we realized we are the kind of friends that can always count on each other no matter what!! I had my first boyfriend...date...and yeah I don't know what happened I really don't...Maybe something was wrong with me but I realize the choices I made weren't the best ones...Two really good things came out of it though...Number 1) I learned a lot about myself and who I am....Number 2) I gained new friends...and I couldn't have gotten that without this summer and everything that happened...I also realized that I have friends that will stand behind me no matter what...

Sophomore Year...That went okay. I found out a lot about who I am. I figured out that my friends represent me, they show what I'm like. I had a rough time between February and June, yet I believe it made me stronger. I lost friends, and got them back. I'm so glad thats over with!!! But all in all, it was so much fun! I got close to Katie and Manda, and I couldn't be happier! they are awesome!!

Summer after Sophomore Year...I spent my whole summer playing basketball. It was pretty fun though, I went to team camp and everything!! I met some really cool kids, like Dani!! She is really awesome. I also went to Cedar Point, and Soak City! It was a blast. for sure. umm... I dunno I hung out with Katie and Amanda a lot. they are just great friends!!

Junior Year...Well, It's going pretty well. I went to Homecoming...Umm...I am making some really great new friends. They freshmen are really awesome this year. Especially a certain few. I've already had a few crushes..lol..;)...Basketball is over now...Phil was killed in a car accident. Sam died of cancer...and another kid from our school died. It leaves us all wondering..what's next?

Well, I went to winterfest, and that was fun. I'm having a good time with my friends..And I'm finding out a lot about myself. I'm kinda confused right now, but I really like someone a lot!!! And I miss Phil a lot lately. And my dad, uncle, and cousin. This is so sad.:(...I'm gonna go..